Once Upon A Time~~

This few days i have been feeling so vexed.. not sure why.. Ytd i pass by my house playground i saw Cheryl and Shahida Image flash into my mind remembering us sitting down there having heart to heart talk then i look to the slide Darren's image flash by remembering his sad mooment an di was there not doing anything but listening to what he has to say and finally he cheered up because of my cousin. hais.. why are all this flashbacks coming back again? i really dont want to remember all this bitter past and those guyz that want my heart i wont care cause i just wanna lead a simple life away from all this romance so that i wont be hurt over and over again.. no matter what happens i just wanna heck care.. i just wanna focus on my studies now cos im alr gonna be a sec 3 student with new subjects new classmates and teachers.. hais... really wondering why Darren's image keep appearing in my dreams.. i dont miss him i really dont. Maybe just the times we had together.... :/ So what if

I feel that this is super true.. No matter how much that have happen between this relationship , I don care alr :/ because I can't take it anymore. Hais :/ what to do? I don know. Recently lots of stuffs have been happening you know :/ alot of relationship problem. First , L then M now T.. Hais :/ Idk la. I don wanna be in a rs alr. BGR sux!!:( I hate my love life. I won't fall in love again. Hais :/ I'm so sorry to those who I've hurt. Sorry :'/

I really don understand myself. I told myself that i will never fall in love again. But after i realise that i gave up on Mr T. A person that look like Mr T fall in love with me but i don dare to accept. What can i do? Hais :'/ now , i realise that i fall in love wif Mr E. He is working together with me. I really admire him in his hot and cute way but now i feel that i shouldnt confess to him because im afraid that he will ignore me and give me his attitude :/ im forever afraid when i want to confess to someone. I remember locking my heart with a key and threwing the key away but now i think he unlocked my heart. :/ i really don understand myself. Why am i falling into such traps again :/ agnes ah agnes you are too young to fall in love and get out of it being hurt.

If Only... I can treat it as nothing has happened between us I can love you like theres no obstacle between us I can see you once again I can go out with you I can muster up the courage to tell you how much i really love you I can explain all the stuffs that i have always wanted to tell you I can forget you  I can give you up I can tell my parents about you I can stead with you openly I can let my friends know who im in a BGR with I can tell everyone how happy i am when im with you I can have another chance with you again I can hug you in the rain again I can see you sending me home again You can give me another chance You can tell me how you really feel whenever you see me sad You can send me home again You can play in the rain with me You will be there whenever im feeling low  You will care for me again You will tell me how you feel about me again You will love me even if there is obstacles You will show me how you love me  You will give me the stuffs tha

After i've got hurt for the first time. Im afraid to fall in love again. It hurts.. Im really very afraid. Whenever im in a BGR i always treat my boy well... but the guyz are always the one to make me sad , hurt , disappointed , heartbroken. I really dont understand why. But this time ard im the one that asked for a break, 1 simple reason... Because im hurt too much and my god found out and he scolded me like hell. Im tired~ I don wanna fall in love again... i cant take it anymore... im sorry love , i don deserve your love. Im gonna lock my heart with a padlock and throw the key away. So that no one can ever unlock my heart again. I hope that no guyz will steal my heart again.. sigh.. 

I have learnt to give up on you thru this few months and i realise that no matter what i have tried to do to help us it didnt work. i dont understand why.. but i still love you like how i always do. It is time for me to give you up as i really feel like im useless.No matter what i did to help us didnt work. I really want to know why but im really gonna give you up. Alahai :/ i really dont understand but i really cannot take it anymore. I have had enough. I don wanna hold on anymore.. :'( But i really wanna thank you for all those wonderful and awesome memories we used to have. Thanks Love. :') Hope that we can have a chance to be at least friends.. :') Lastly , i want to say this to you I Love You Boi! Wish you all the best in the future! Hope we will be at least friends!! :') see you soon~ bye~ :p

This year im taking ATC'12 i was selected by my OC for this song leader course. I love Area 9 alot. this is my first time taking this camp at pulau ubin.. i cant wait to see whose in my group and the campfire! i want to be the emcee but hais.. someone took it.. if i had a choice i would have done better. I want to be the emcee... do i have a chance? 

Im not sure if you are aware or not but i just want to tell you that i miss everything we had together, the times we text, the times you help me when i need help wif school work or projects, i miss every single text from you. I know its stupid to be missing you now. But don make me feel worse pls? Is like why did we stop texting? I donno whats the reason you stopped texting me. I just know it hurts alot, we didnt even quarrel much less the last time we text were so okay.. i didnt sense that something's gonna happen to me and you. That one fine day morning, we text happily .. but suddenly you just stop texting me or rather replying me for no reason.. i read our conversation over and over again. thinking what was wrong with our conver? i really donno.. till now im thinking about what happened on that day that caused us to be like this. People say is only one sided love. Let me tell you this i will wait no matter how long you want. I know im not ur type. You wont like me but i just

Dont judge if you dont know me and dont judge me by my past. No matter how bad am i in my past. You never know.. People changes feeling also change. This is why i don like people judging me by my past. even if you hate me still don judge me by that! i hate alot of ppl judging me by that! so shut up if you wan to judge me.. :/