Once Upon A Time~~

So... Heres another post about this one incident that happen between Ms A and mr   Z. One day, me and Mr Z fell in ❤️ With each other and they got together very quickly after confessing with each other. This was the first time Ms A fell in love with a guy. Then, days passed by. Suddenly, one fine day, mr Z stopped messaging ms A and Ms A wanted to find out the reason why Mr Z stopped messaging her. So she called Mr Z up and started asking questions about why he stopped messaging her. He didnt bother to reason or even provide an answer. He simply just told ms A that : "i've lost all my feelings to you. And you are no longer important to me anymore so stop being a bitch and come pestering me." After Ms A heard that, she broke out into tears and she started over thinking.. Days later, she started self-harming and resulted to punching the walls till her knuckles shifted badly. She was still waiting stupidly for Mr Z to come back to her. She cried for days and months. She told...

Sometimes i really dont want this to happen to me. its like no matter how much i talk to them nicely they will just use all those words on me. Do you know how it feels like to be used on by such hurting words and still have to act strong infront of them. I really dk what to do.. Sometimes i just really wanna die. Whats the use of staying alive when i get bullied every single day? I dont understand. Sometimes i really hope that my mum didnt save my life. So i wont be in such miserable state. I just keep overthinking and i cant stop myself from crying every night to bed. People thinks that im fine since im so hyper but i always put on an imgae that im okay when the fact is im not. I think i have changed to become a person that you never knew. Im sorry. Im really that useless okay.. Idk why i just keep making people worried. How useless can i get? I really have no idea... 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔

hey.. you... yes you! i really miss you alot. its just the start of the June Holidays and im already missing... imagine what would happen if we both graduate from springfield? i just cant imagine..its really sad that we are all gonna leave Springfield soon... just a few more months to go... and we will be out of Springfield and i guess everything will be over. things will be back to square one. i will lose all my friends i met in my Springfield life and i will probably have no friends... :/ but i guess its okay.. since im the one losing my friends.. i dont mind. i guess. but i know i will surely miss you damn alot..  :'/

Hey people out there!:D I've decided to revive this blog as i just feel like i have so many things to tell somebody but idk who to tell to because there is just so little people i can trust. i just feel so useless sometimes and i feel like they will only come to me when they need something right after they have achieved the stuff they need they will just simply leave.. i really feel so damn used... i have people like Khaliq, Shahrul, Iffah etc. But, who can i really trust? i really dont know. im seriously damn blur about things, i dont want to so negative but im honestly surrounded with negative things around me... im really afraid one day they wiill all leave me because im just that negative about things. im sorry for being that negative... soo thats about it...

hello! its been long since i updated my blog right! so i have decided to update it today! hm... how have you guyz been? i have been having many problems recently.. i've been trying to live with everything.. maybe its because i have not been working hard enough to resolve it.. im sad and angry. but it just seem that no one bothers saving me and caring for me at all... and its like idk how to phrase it but im holding on to this crush that i hve got and i havent been able to give it all up. ihave been trying really hard. but its just that he is too difficult to forget. im trying to give  him up.. hopefully i succeed...sigh

This few days i have been feeling so vexed.. not sure why.. Ytd i pass by my house playground i saw Cheryl and Shahida Image flash into my mind remembering us sitting down there having heart to heart talk then i look to the slide Darren's image flash by remembering his sad mooment an di was there not doing anything but listening to what he has to say and finally he cheered up because of my cousin. hais.. why are all this flashbacks coming back again? i really dont want to remember all this bitter past and those guyz that want my heart i wont care cause i just wanna lead a simple life away from all this romance so that i wont be hurt over and over again.. no matter what happens i just wanna heck care.. i just wanna focus on my studies now cos im alr gonna be a sec 3 student with new subjects new classmates and teachers.. hais... really wondering why Darren's image keep appearing in my dreams.. i dont miss him i really dont. Maybe just the times we had together.... :/ So what if ...