Once Upon A Time~~

I really don understand myself. I told myself that i will never fall in love again. But after i realise that i gave up on Mr T. A person that look like Mr T fall in love with me but i don dare to accept. What can i do? Hais :'/ now , i realise that i fall in love wif Mr E. He is working together with me. I really admire him in his hot and cute way but now i feel that i shouldnt confess to him because im afraid that he will ignore me and give me his attitude :/ im forever afraid when i want to confess to someone. I remember locking my heart with a key and threwing the key away but now i think he unlocked my heart. :/ i really don understand myself. Why am i falling into such traps again :/ agnes ah agnes you are too young to fall in love and get out of it being hurt.

If Only... I can treat it as nothing has happened between us I can love you like theres no obstacle between us I can see you once again I can go out with you I can muster up the courage to tell you how much i really love you I can explain all the stuffs that i have always wanted to tell you I can forget you  I can give you up I can tell my parents about you I can stead with you openly I can let my friends know who im in a BGR with I can tell everyone how happy i am when im with you I can have another chance with you again I can hug you in the rain again I can see you sending me home again You can give me another chance You can tell me how you really feel whenever you see me sad You can send me home again You can play in the rain with me You will be there whenever im feeling low  You will care for me again You will tell me how you feel about me again You will love me even if there is obstacles You will show me how you love me  You will give me the stuffs tha

After i've got hurt for the first time. Im afraid to fall in love again. It hurts.. Im really very afraid. Whenever im in a BGR i always treat my boy well... but the guyz are always the one to make me sad , hurt , disappointed , heartbroken. I really dont understand why. But this time ard im the one that asked for a break, 1 simple reason... Because im hurt too much and my god found out and he scolded me like hell. Im tired~ I don wanna fall in love again... i cant take it anymore... im sorry love , i don deserve your love. Im gonna lock my heart with a padlock and throw the key away. So that no one can ever unlock my heart again. I hope that no guyz will steal my heart again.. sigh.. 

I have learnt to give up on you thru this few months and i realise that no matter what i have tried to do to help us it didnt work. i dont understand why.. but i still love you like how i always do. It is time for me to give you up as i really feel like im useless.No matter what i did to help us didnt work. I really want to know why but im really gonna give you up. Alahai :/ i really dont understand but i really cannot take it anymore. I have had enough. I don wanna hold on anymore.. :'( But i really wanna thank you for all those wonderful and awesome memories we used to have. Thanks Love. :') Hope that we can have a chance to be at least friends.. :') Lastly , i want to say this to you I Love You Boi! Wish you all the best in the future! Hope we will be at least friends!! :') see you soon~ bye~ :p